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Oi! (Molly, that's for you) [12 Aug 2004|06:41pm] [ mood | jealous ] Jealousy is an awful thing, but it's hard not to be jealous right now. Bah, I never get who I want!! 6 | comment

[12 Aug 2004|02:02pm] [ mood | cheerful ] I have updated in a few days. Naughty me. I should get a spanking... :-o. Okay enough with the dirty talk. Hah, I have spent the last few nights saving pictures and writing so yeah. I've been busy... Monday Samm stayed the night. It was fun, and funny. We wrote, or I should say started a new story. It's funny, and somewhat disturbing. If had read it you'd know what I mean. I'm working on a different one myself but I don't feel like talking about it at the moment. I'm making pizza. Mmm. I just cleaned my room and cleaned up my desk. I had homework on it from seventh grade, yeah I need to be a little more organized. My room really wasn't messy, considering I clean it everyday. I just needed to dust. Yeah, that was boring. Anyway. I have over 400 pictures of Mana now! I'm happy. Mmm, well pizza's done. I'll write back later. Au Revoir Ma' Cherie! comment

Oi! [09 Aug 2004|12:21am] [ mood | embarrassed ] Yeah... I still feel like an ass about that Brad thing. Lmao I just want to know why Samm waited until now to tell me. Bah... 5 | comment

Subject Not Needed [08 Aug 2004|10:52pm] [ mood | angry ] Bah! Today has been boring. I woke up late, and then spent an hour or so on the phone with Samantha. Funny girl I must say. Nothing new really, everytime I speak to her or see I end up on the floor laughing hysterically. The two of us are very good friends, but I fear again it will be some what broken by another boy. She continues to pick guys who don't like me, which I can't understand. I could never be with someone who didn't like my friends, my friends are everything to me. I really don't know why Brad doesn't like me anyway, or how exactly do I "creep" him out. Shaila says it's probably either because of my large british front teeth or the fact that I am bisexual. Both of which confuse me, he seems to be a bit of a fag himself...but whatever. Around 4:30 or so this afternoon I found it in me to take a shower. Before this I had been spending my time saving new pictures of Gackt but got bored with it then found myself as you know, in the shower. Later I had gotten dressed in my pale green beatles shirt and a pair of brown cords and did my hair. Yes, yes I know the life of Drew Gordon is insanely exciting. Afterword I filled out a stupid survey because I was bored and then ate pizza. Bah. I have to say I am a generally happy person, I'm extremely lonely but I'm generally happy. At times I tend to freak out and start rambling on about things that really have no significants, but lately a few things have been bothering me... I have to say that I am tired of dealing with people, most of whom I speak are my friends. Certain "friends" seem to care about no one but themselves and act as though everything in the world is happening to them, no one else and certainly not me. Certain friends like to correct me every chance they get, just show they know something I do not to feel superior even if I have the facts to prove I am right, they still do it. This compitition that goes on is rediculous. Weither it's to have more pictures of a person, to get better grades, or to have more books, even to be father in a fucking video game they feel the need to rub it in. What kind of friend is that?  Being critizied by a "friend" for faults they too share is rediculous. Certain friends I speak of are not trust worthy either because if I tell them something, they tell another friend and then acuse me of lying, or telling someone a "secret".  These are not traits of just one person, but a few people. I am not naming any names because I know if you are reading this you sure as hell know who you are. I've had enough. Lmao I just found out Brad some how found out I liked him a while ago. Wow I feel like an idiot. Eh, whatever. Me liking him lasted like a day anyway. Bah, oh well. Pretty much everyone either hates me or thinks I'm a freak anyway so whats one more person? I'm tired. This entry is done, I feel like I'm rambling again... Just someone fucking shoot me. Really... Bah, just another one of those days! Au Revoir! 2 | comment

[08 Aug 2004|06:50pm] 1.If you woke up tomorrow morning and you were the opposite gender, what would be the first thing youd do, and how would you spend the day? - Um, after going into shock I'd probably masturbate then go buy a short skirt. 2.If you could travel back in time and visit or be a part of any era of time at all,what era would it be,and why? - Renaissance 3.If a tv producer approached you,and told you that you could write a tv show,what would your tv show be about,and who would star in it?: - It would be about Malice Mizer. I'd so watch a show with them in it. Can you say sexy? 4.If you could be invisible for a whole day,what would you do?: - I'd act like a ghost and scare the crap out of people I don't like. 5.Imagine if you only had one meal left,and you could after that,never eat again. What foods would you want to eat,if you knew it would be your last time that you could eat them?: - Um, a lot of asian foods. It's yummy, oh and as much sour punch as I could possibly eat. 6.If you could completely get rid of one fashion trend that you personally don't like,what would it be?: - I have far too many I hate. Either between this Emo bullshit, that pathetic "punk" trend or the over the summer goth shit. It's all awful. 7.If you could dye your hair ANY colour,would colour would you choose?: - I want to go platinum blonde but my hair would fall out. *Cries* 8.If you could look like any celebrity,who would choose and why?: - Mana Belle or Klaha. 9.If you could spend one hour with ANYONE,(alive,or dead) who would it be,and why?: - Camui Gackt. I'm in love with him. 10.If you won a million dollars in the lottery,what would you do with the money?: - I'd buy everything I ever wanted, which wouldn't really be possible because a million dollars isn't that much these days. Eh, I'd get my friends and the family I liked some stuff too I guess? 11.If you could take someones place in any movie,who would you like to be?: - Some pretty guy in the Resident Evil movies. I dunno who but as long as I got to work with Milla Jovovich I'd be in heaven. 12.If you were offered an all-expenses paid two week vacation to Disneyland with all your friends,or a life time supply of chocolate,which would you choose?: - Chocolate. Duh, Disneyland isn't that cool anyway. 13.If world war 3 started,and nuclear bombs were being dropped in your country,what would be your first reaction?: - Kill Bush...then have a wild 3-day orgy. 14.If you were at the beach,and you saw a tidal wave coming,what would you do?: - I wouldn't be paying attention so I wouldn't have noticed it. Dur. It's me you are talking about here... 15.If you could tell one person ANYTHING,what would it be,and who would it be?: - Fuck if I know, and if I didn't I wouldn't answer that... 16.Would you rather have a McDonalds restaurant in your house,or a Subway store?: - Subway, I hate McDonalds. Besides I wouldn't have to pay for the Subway if it was in my house...and it's really expensive so yeah. Subway. 17.If you could visit one place in the world,where would you visit?: - Oh god, thats hard to answer. Either Japan or Italy. I love them both. 18.If you were given 5000 spending money,and could travel to any shopping destination in the world,where would you choose?: - Gothic Lolita shops in Japan. Those shops are fucking expensive, I'd be able to buy like a shoe and part of a skirt with 5000 dollars. 19.If you saw your favourite celebrity in the street,what would be your first reaction?: - Run up to them and scream nonsense. Well I'd be trying to say something but it would come out as nonsense because I'd be like hysterical. Or I'd try to look cool and trip and fall. Then Brian, Mana, Camui, Milla or Angelina (whoever it may be) will laugh in my face. *Tear* 20.If you could change your first name to anything you wanted,what would you change it to?: - Uh, I dunno. 21.If you had a choice of being either really rich,but unattractive,or poor and drop dead gorgeous,which would you choose?: - It depends, if I was so rich I could afford to get plastic surgery to be drop dead gorgeous then that. Otherwise I'd be poor and hot as fuck. 23.Whats one feature of your appearance that you absolutely like?: - Um, my eyes. Otherwise I'm blah. 24.If you were told today that you had only a month to live,what would be all the things you would do,or say before you died?: - To many to list, I hate these type of questions. >.< 25.If you could change any part of your appearance,what would it be?: - I'd want a better complexion, I don't think I'm that ugly but my forehead is too large, my hair is too wavy, my nose isn't straight and uh I'm fat? Lmao. 26.If you had your own line of cosmetics,what would you call it,and what kind of products would you make?: - I'd make lipsticks, eye liners and eye shadows probably. Maybe a good white cover up for those who aren't fortunet enough to be as white as Mana. I'd call it...[Crazy Japanese Word] 27.If you had your own line of underwear,how would you design it?: - I'd make it either like little boys underwear with Batman on it or I'd have the Lolita ruffles on them. For men and women of course. 28.If you could completely destroy one place in the world (country,building,whatever) what would it be?: - Um, I dunno. 29.If you had the choice of either having a huge rollercoaster in your backyard,or a private movie theatre in your house,which would you choose?: - Rollercoaster! 30.If you could invite any celebrities to a party you were hosting,who would they be?: - Brian Molko, Mana Belle, Camui Gackt, Yuki, Kozi, Kami (Aw, Kami), Klaha, Milla Jovovich, Angelina Jolie, Tom Cruise, Kaya and Hora, Ayumi Hamasaki, Yaya Han, Uma Therman, Nicole Kidman, Ewan Mcgregor, Jonathan Rhys Meyers and um...I dunno who else. 31.If you were allowed to have ANY kind of animal you wanted,what would it be?: - A Panda! 32.If you could get cosmetic surgery and could only get one procedure done,what would choose if you only had 2 options; Completely flat chested-would you get breast implants?: A really long,crooked big nose-would you get a nose job?: Rofl I want boobs? No, I'd get a nose job. 33.If someone you didnt find really attractive,but was really nice,and lavished expensive gifts on their girlfriends/boyfriends asled you out, would you turn them down?: - If I didn't like them I'd turn them down but tell them to buy me something or I'd kill them. 34.If you could have one super power,what would it be?: - Have magic powers, like being able to use mana like fire, blizzard, thunder and water. 35.If you could be any kind of toy,what toy would you be?: - A squirt gun. 36.If you could be either a)Tara Reid b)Shannon Elizabeth c)Jennifer Love Hewitt who would you most like to be?: - *blink* 37.If you could have ANY celebrities wardrobe,who would you choose?: - Mana's. 38.If you could make any kind of movie,what would your movie be about,and who would ask to star in it?: - I'd star in it with hot actors and actresses. It would be an action/fantasy and I dunno what it would be about. I don't feel like thinking. 39.If you could be in any music video of your choice,what would it be?: - Beast Of Blood-Malice Mizer 40.If a genie appeared to you and gave you three wishes,what would you ask for?: - Um... I'm not going to answer that. 41.If you could commit any crime,and totally get away with it,what would you do?: - I'd be a mob boss. I'd have people killed and I'd get money and stuff. 42.Would you rather go to school from a)12:00pm to 6:00pm b)4:00pm to 10:00pm c)10:00am to 4:00am d) 6:00am to 12:00pm What would it be?: 6:00am to 12:00pm 43. If you could design your own line of clothing,how would you design it?: - They would be Lolita Goth clothes. 44.If you had the choice of the worlds best mobile phone,or a 90 minute shopping spree in your favourite store,what would you choose? - Shopping spree! Do you realize how much clothes and shoes I can get in 90 fucking minutes!? 45.If you could get any tattoo,or any piercing of your choice without any limitations,what would you get?: - Um, I dunno. I want my eyebrow pierced but I also want a tattoo. 46.If you were on a desert island with one person only,who would that person be?: - *Blink* 47.If you were able swap lives with ANYONE,who would you swap with?: - *Blink* 48.If you could live anywhere in the world,where would you live?: - Under Klaha's dress with Gackt. 49.What concert would you most like to go to?: - Malice Mizer one but they broke up. Bah, Moi Dix Mois or just a Visual Kei concert would be cool. 50.If you could ask the following people only one question,what would it be?: a)Micheal Jackson: Rape me? b) Britney Spears: Can I hit you one more time? c) President Bush: Are all Texians as stupid as you are? d) The Pope: You're my hero! Will you sign my chest? e) Brad Pitt: *Giggle* f) Kermit the Frog: Uh...? g) Eminem: I hate you...Die now? (Is that a question?) h) Mariah Carey: *Pops her fake boobs* i) Cameron Diaz: Ionno. j) Jerry Seinfeld: Whats the deal with you? k) Homer Simpson: Ionno. l) Bill Clinton: Did you or didn't you have sexual relations with that woMAN? m) Marilyn Manson: What is the square root of 3,599,985,999? n) Sharon Osbourne: What's up with your husband? o) Mike Myers: Yeah baby? p) Mr Bean: Lmao. q) Madonna: Vogue? r) Elvis Presely: I have no idea. s) Marilyn Monroe: No Idea. t) Cher: You're nothing without Sonny...question mark. u) Elton John: Hold me close Tiny Dancer? v) Pamela Anderson: How's your liver? w) Anna Nicole-Smith: No. x) Jennifer Lopez: I hate you. y) John Edward: Who's John Edward? I mean, who the hell are you? z) Jerry Springer: Jerry? Jerry? Jerry? 51.If you had the choice would you rather be Marilyn Monroe for a day,or Madonna?: - Madonna. 52.If you could be any character in the Simpsons,who would you be?: - Apu. 53.If you could live with any celebrity,who would it be and why?: - Gackt because he's a god. 54:What in your opinion is the greatest song ever made?: - Oh god um...I dunno! This is a hard question! A Malice Mizer song or a Placebo song. I love all of them. 55.If you could live under the sea,or up in the clouds,where would you choose?: - Under the Sea...With Sealab 2021 56.If you punch any celebrity in the face,who would it be?: - Avril. I'd kick that bitches ass. 57.Answer just Yes (like it) or No (dont like it) for the following songs: a) Dirrrty-Chrstina Aguilera: no b) St Anger-Metallica: no c) American Life-Madonna: yes, until she starts rapping. No Madonna, no. d) Baby One More Time-Britney Spears: no e) Stop-The Spice Girls: no? f) Its my Life-Bon Jovi: no! g) Mobscene-Marilyn Manson: yes m'am. h) Rock your body-Justin Timberlake: kinda. i) Sing for the moment-Eminem: no j) Barenaked-Jennifer Love Hewitt: no k) Gangsta8217;s Paradise-Coolio: no l) Country Grammar-Nelly: no m) Complicated-Avril Lavigne: Um, yes? -shifts eyes- What the hell do you think? n) Underneath your clothes-Shakira haha. no. o) In da club-50 cent: no. p) Through the Rain-Mariah Carey: no q) My heart will go on-Celine Dion: Haha, no. r) I got you babe-Cher and Sonny: It's Sonny and Cher and yes. s) All the thngs she said-Tatu: No!!! t) Jenny from the block-Jennifer Lopez: Jello from the box...mmm, now I'm hungry. Oh yeah, no. u) Stole-Kelly Rowland: no v) Lose Yourself-Eminem: no w) Work it-Missy Elliot: Yes. x) Billie Jean-Micheal Jackson: Yesm. y) I cant get you out of my head-Kylie Minogue: Sure? z) I will always love you-Whitney Houston: I think I need crack. 58.What is the one movie you wish you could memorize word for word?: - Interview with the vampire, wait I already know it word for word. How about Battle Royale? That's in Japanese so I'd have a hard time, but hey, why not? 59.If you could be a model for either a)Underwear b)Lipstick c)Perfume or d)Jeans which would you choose?: Uh? 60.Rate the following movies out of 10,and if you haventt seen them just put a -(dash) a) Charlies Angels: Which one? Eh, 6 b) The Terminator: 5 c) The Mexican: 10 d) Legally Blonde: I don't remember, I saw it a while ago. e) Tomb Raider: 1243 f) The Exorcist: 10!! g) American Pie: I've never seen it! Bah. I suck. h) Ocean's Eleven: 8 i) Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone: ? 45. j) The Brady bunch movie: Lmao, 10. k) Clueless: 12. l) Scream: 1 m) Scary Movie 2: 2 n) Not Another teen movie: 5 o) Fast and the Furious: Negative 16 p) Titanic: Bah, I only like the part when the people die. So 3? q) Pearl Harbour: It sucked. r) Toy Story: 8 s) Shrek: 7 t) Crossroads: - u) Blair witch project: - v) Matilda: 6 w) Sister Act: - x) Austin Powers:International Man of Mystery: 6 y) X men: 6670865537 z) Vanilla Sky: - a) Theres something about mary: 8 b) Meet the parents: 10 c) Zoolander 54563677 d) Cruel Intentions 7647536 e) I know what you did last summer: 5 f) The sweetest thing: - g) Men In Black: 4 h) Independence Day: 3 61. Type a one word opinion of the following people: Your mother: I dunno. Marge Simpson: Hot. Saddam Hussein: ? Eminem: Ignorant. Angelina Jolie: Sexy. Mariah Carey: Sick. The Osbournes: Cool (Only Ozzy and Sharon) Pamela Anderson: Ew Will Smith: Cool Brad Pitt: Hot Geri Halliwell: (Isn't this a Spice Girl?) Um? The Queen of England: Woot. Oscar the grouch: Frightening Cher: Plastic Eddie Murphy: Haha. Bill Clinton: Pervert Jerry Springer: Um? Ned Flanders: Hot Cartman from South Park: Obnoxious Al Bundy (married with children): Lmao. Greg Brady: Eh The American Idol: Sure? 62.Whats your opinion on: HIV/AIDS: Gross. War: Lame. Australia: Like as in down under? Abidigonies rock the hizzouse. Homosexuality: Disgusts me. Religion: No Comment Beauty: ? Murder: Depends Suicide: Stupid, well some people really should just kill themselves. Love: Wonderful. Poverty: Depressing. Sex before marriage: Who hasn't had sex before marriage these days? Everyone is a whore, it's gross. Porn Stars: Disgusting, but some what hilarious. Theft: awesome! Eating disorders: Sad. Abortion: Mothers Choice. Rape: Wrong...but so right. Violence: Lame. Cancer: Awful. TV: Woot. Celebrities: What kind of question is this? It depends. Hollywood: *Blink* Friends: Good friends are um, good? Family: Mine's quite disfuctional. 63.When you see old people with wrinkly skin and gray hair,do you fear ageing?: - Yes! 64.If you could create the ultimate theme park,what would you call it,where would you want it to be,and what type of rides would you have in it?: - I dunno. 65.Have you ever been on a rollercoaster,and felt your safety harness loosening?: - Yes! I went on the Raging Bull once and my thingy wouldn't stay down. I was horrified. 66.If you went to a fortune teller,what would you want to know about the future or the present?: - Stupid question. Fortune tellers tell you the future, weither it's going to happen in a month or 5 minutes its still the future! Dolt. 67.Do you believe in God? Do you think God is male or female,or both?: - God doesn't exist. 68.Whats more appealing,lying on the beach on a hot summers day,with the sound of the ocean crashing,or lying in front of a fireplace on a cold winters night?: - Both. 69.If you made a song,would it be a slow ballad,an r and b hip hop tune,rap,dance,upbeat or easy listening?: - Ballad. 70.What is your all time favourite quote?: - I don't know my favorite quote but here is one that I do agree with..."For humans, it is the heart and soul that matters, and the soul has a place to go back where gender does not matter." 71.Who inspires you?: - Sometimes my family, my friends, musicians, actors, a lot of people? 72.Do you believe your dreams have significance?: - Yes. 73.What can you tell from a person,just by looking at them? What feature gives away their personality in your opinion?: - I can't say you can judge someone by their appearence but I know first impressions mean a lot more than people tend to realize. Um, you can also tell a lot about someone on how they carry themselves. 74.If you could be a character in any tv show,which tv show would you choose?: - Aqua Teen Hunger Force or Case Closed...Or Sorcerer Hunters (Those are movies?) Or Sailor Moon. Lol. 75.If a friend youve known for a long time,and like a lot,asked you to go out with them,would you turn them down?: - If I thought it may affect the friendship in a bad way then no. I have gone out with friends and it has ruined the friendship but I have also dated friends and it made the friendship even better. 76.What body part do you sometimes take for granted?: - Legs and Hands. Hands mostly, I'd die without them. I wouldn't be able to draw which means a lot to me... I wouldn't be able to play the piano (I'm still learning) or use the computer. I feel horrible for people without limbs. 77.If you were diagnosed with a treatable cancer,would you fight for your life,or would you crumble,and let the illness defeat you?: - What the hell kind of question is that? 78.Are you confident when getting up and speaking in front of a crowd?: - Sometimes. I am kind of self conscious and I tend to think about what other people are thinking about me when I am in front of them and yeah. I get really nervous. 79.Would you like to be celebrity,if it meant constantly having to watch what you say,and what you do,and have your privacy taken from you.Is it really worth it?: - I want to be a Visual Kei singer and an actor one day. I wouldn't watch what I say or what I'd do, I'd just be myself like I am today. The privacy part would suck but that doesn't change my dream! 80.Would you like your friends to fill out this survey?: - Um, sure? 4 | comment

[07 Aug 2004|11:53pm] I hate you. I hate so many of you. It's hysterically frightening how much I hate so fucking many of you. It's really frightening how much I hate in general. Hate in it's self is a horrible thing, but I'm an addict. I, like so many others, am addicted to hate. I've lost all ability to love and I am frightened I have hit complete hysterics. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing anymore, my life seems meaningless. Everyones life seems meaningless. My brain has gone numb, and I can't feel my eyes. I'm losing my mind. I have no emotion. I'm dead. 10 | comment

Title Unknown. [07 Aug 2004|09:18pm] [ mood | lonely ] Well, I haven't updated in quite sometime. I wish I could say I was too busy but really I've just been too lazy. I just got home from Missouri I think it was. Mmm, I went on vacation Wednesday morning and spent two days in Chicago with my parents and Kelsey then we went down to Missouri to spend two days at a pretty big Six Flags and a cool hotel there. Chicago was really fun. I love it there. I saw the Art Institute and Millenium park. One night we went down to Navy Pier and saw a really cool fire works show and yeah. I loved it. Heh. Six Flags was alright, I honestly like ours better but it was still fun. The hotel was cool but I'm not into southern people. Lmao Kelsey and I were talking to some kid, he was like 14 or something and like crazy religious. He asked me if I was a rock star? I didn't understand at first but he said I dressed and carried myself like one. I kept laughing. When Kelsey and I told him we didn't believe in god he almost fell over. I'm serious. It was really weird, haha then when he found out I was bisexual he pretty much did fall over. Southern folk are strange... Kelsey and I got in a few fights. She's cool but I think if we had to spend another day together we'd kill eachother. LMAO Kelsey and I each bought four of those ever so popular "Who would Jesus Do?" bracelets. I wanted to see what the fuss was about. Really it only let me wondering Who would Jesus do? Ah, anyway. I got new pants from Old Navy, brown cords. They're nice. I saw a really cool jacket from the Gap in the city as well but it was like a million dollars. I laughed at it then walked away all sad because I didn't have a million dollars. Shucks. I have been really happy the last like two weeks but today I've been all depressed again. It sucks. Bah, I'm in a bad mood and I need to talk to Jessica. But No! She's not online! Her and her stupid boyfriend. >.< I hate when people have boyfriends/girlfriends. They abandon me!!! 2 | comment

Subject: (optional) [23 Jul 2004|09:44pm] [ mood | sad ] Well it has been a while. I went on vacation a few days ago. That was interesting. Unfortunetly we had car troubles...So yea, that much of it wasn't very fun. I hadn't been to a water park in ages so that was cool. I wouldn't go back to that hotel though. I got back on Wednesday night and basically hung around the house. As usual! Thursday I... I really don't remember what I did. Wait, Thursday was yesterday right? Well Adult Swim rocked yesterday! Lol. I am happy Brittany gave me Rylan's screen name. That kid rocks, he's my buddy! I was talking to Star about my dating problems, she seems to share some of them. Haha, I el love that girl. Today I went out to eat with my mother and downloaded some David Bowie songs. That is about it. Actually I just got back from my Dad's. We all (Dad, Mom and I) rented a movie. It was good. I can't remember the name though, it was like "the big bounce" or something. Eh, it's not important. I called Samantha today to see if she was doing anything. Of course she was haning out with Brad face. I can see why she is, he's a cool guy. Still though I feel sort of replaced. She didn't make any attempt what so ever to talk to me this week, and she is supposed to be my best friend! This sucks, all my friends are off doing stuff while I'm sitting here alone. Bah, and I think Kelsey is avoiding me... Well I guess that's all for now. Au Revoir. 3 | comment

Update! [19 Jul 2004|11:19am] [ mood | bouncy ] Blah. I'm doing laundry at the moment, I am going on vacation tomorrow and I literally have NO clothes! I feel dirt, haha and I need a shower. I'm going on the trip with my Mother, her best friend Roseann, her daughter Trina and her son Andrew. We all have to share a room... That sucks. Anyone who knows me knows I need my space. I hadn't updated this weekend because I was at my fathers. I helped him with yard work so he got me a new video game. Lol, my sister's Vice City doesn't work anymore so she blamed me for breaking it. Haha, I didn't but whatever! I love my sister and all but she is a bitch... Anyway, my dad got me my very own Vice City so I could play it without her bitching and yea. I was happy. Oh woot, my memory key broke a while ago and that is what had my thousands of pictures of Malice Mizer, Milla Jovovich, Place, ect. So I had to put all of them on my computer which I really didn't want to do... Normally it makes computers slow but I saved them as jpegs and then they take up less space... Besides this is a new computer and fast so the pictures made absolutely no difference. Wow I'm getting off track. Anyway, my memory key was only 128 mbs and my dad got one from his work that he doesn't need so he gave it to me. This key is over 250 mbs. That is huge. Again I was happy. Lol. I need more Mana and Camui pictures on my wall. I need more hotness in my life. Mmm, well that is all. I must find my Bass Drive cd! It has vanished! Oh no! Au Revoir! 3 | comment

No Title [15 Jul 2004|09:10pm] [ mood | okay ] Well today was actually fun. Mom and Roseann took Trina and I out for lunch and then I hung out with them for a while. It was nice to get out of the house. It kinda sucks sitting in my bedroom alone day after day, so yea I had fun. Last night I had an awesome conversation with Star. We talked about all sorts of fun and interesting things... Well fun and interesting to me anyway. I found someone else besides Emily to talk about Religion, politics, ect. Though I find her some what intimidating in seeing how intelligent she is. Still though she is a good chat! Lol. I was reading a biography on Camui Gackt today. His childhood was really depressing... I felt kind of bad for him. I didn't get to finish reading it though because I left the house but I probably will tonight. Au Revoir. 2 | comment

[14 Jul 2004|10:29pm] [ mood | gloomy ] Meh. I feel like an ass because of what I said about Kelsey. I just got angry, I hate when people lie to me especially if they are supposed to be your friend. I hate liars... but everyone is a liar. I'm drawing a picture of Count at the moment. It is actually turning out quite well. I really need to practice more, I mean I know I can draw and I know I have some amount of talent, but my work is lacking something and I don't really know what. None of it pleases me. I want to start my own manga or graphic novel, but I have such trouble showing motion in my drawings. That is a bit of problem. All my characters have either no expression or they are sad. Haha. Well I guess it's something to work at. I'm in thinking mode and when I am I'm usually all depressed and gloomy. You know I really don't understand why religious people, mainly people involved in christianity, have this need to change people. Does it really matter if everyone in the world believes what they believe? Shouldn't they just want everyone to be a good person. Isn't that what christianity is about? Being a good person. Rather than looking up to one person and following what they say your entire life, don't you think you should just search for your own answers? Search for yourself... That is what reason christianity doesn't appeal to me, it is soo interdependant, if that is the right word. I don't know. Since when has gay marriage become more important than murderers and these "Terrorists"? This country is supposed to have a seperation of church and state and using religion as an excuse for banning gay marriage seems insane. Hah, but that is just my opinion. 2 | comment

Bah. [14 Jul 2004|08:10pm] [ mood | geeky ] Brittany just left. Today was pretty fun, we are both kind of morons so yea, it was fun. Hah, I was informed today about some shit by Kori in Brittany's journal post thingies. I personally think stupid attention whores like Kori need to keep their nose the fuck out of other peoples business. But hey, that is just my opinion. Haha, I laughed! Britt and I were looking through Felicia's journal and saw that in her info she said she doesn't like, and I quote "Loud girls, hypocrites and liars" but isn't she herself loud, hypocritical and a liar? We were going to count how many times in her journal she mentioned killing herself, but it was friends only so we didn't. Still the though we had a laugh at the thought. I'm a little angry with Kelsey. I noticed today that she lies about like everything. She said she works all the time so she can never hang out but I noticed lately she hasn't been working at all but she has been at Samm's. Whatever, I just think its funny she lies about stupid shit all the time and thinks people don't know it. At her own birthday part that Brittany and I threw for her she left because she is all moody and blah. She said she had to go because her dad needed something and she said she called her house to see if someone could pick her up and she said no one was home so she walked and made Samm go with her. Funny thing is she dialed the number but never hit call, she just wanted to walk so Samm wouldn't stay to hang out with me. Brittany and I called her house and her Mom and Dad were home. Funny... People are dumb, and I want more Malice Mizer songs. Sadly the "No Pains No Gains" song won't download, and it's such a good song too! Depressing, perhaps I should kill myself? After all I am a typical emo kid. -gags- Well that is all. Au Revoir. I want to read some manga... 3 | comment

s-conscious! [14 Jul 2004|07:49pm] [ mood | silly ] Well hey there. I'm hanging out with Brittany because I have no friends and she is my last resort. Lol, just kidding. Well, I'm sitting here listening to Malice Mizer as usual. I dunno what to write so I'm just going to say Brittany is sexy. Lmao Au Revoir 2 | comment

Woops [11 Jul 2004|11:46pm] [ mood | depressed ] I saw Battle Royale! I forgot to say that, it was great. I love Japanese movies, I mean this was live action! NOT an anime! Speaking of which, I want to watch Wolfs Rain and Case Closed. Atleast Cowboy Bebop is on. -Loves it- I need money like crazy! Final Fantasy x-2 is just waiting for me to buy it, but I'm broke. I need to buy the entire Battle Royale series and the new Petshop Of Horrors manga, I'm three books behind. : / comment

Hey yall! [11 Jul 2004|10:54pm] [ mood | happy ] I feel like the biggest ass! I couldn't make it to Jessica's party Saturday night and I never got to talk to her. I'm sorry hunny, though you can't read this for a while, I love you! Good news, I finally finished the painting on my wall, it looks pretty good too! Yay for life. I can finally put all my books back where they belong. For those of you who don't know my books were on my dresser in my large closet where the painting was painted on my wall. I have no doors on my closet and yea, it's weird and hard to explain... That isn't important anyway... The fact of the matter is, I'm happy! Wee! I went to my cousin's daughters baptism today, which means I went to a church... And boy was that interesting. After all everyone knows of my strong christian faith. LMAO. It alright I guess, it was a catholic church so it was better than being in my grandmothers southern baptist church, but still it was church. Though Catholics are usual money fiends, bastards really... -pause in thought- At one point everyone was asked to raise their right arm/hand in the air and look at this Jesus thing which had something to do with baptising all of these babies...I didn't understand it but whatever. I was looking around (being the only one without my hand up) feeling a little uncomfortable...I felt like I was in a Nazi prison camp or something. I laughed, people stared and yea. The usual. My mom made me dress all "nice" as she says which meant wearing a button up Kohls shirt. Hey, it made her happy I guess and it was for one of my cool cousins so I did it anyway. Later we went to this thing and had food and hung out with a lot of family. It was alright, better than being home by myself I guess. Lmao, on Saturday we had a few people over at my Dad's house and my mom and her best friend were there and got a bit tipsy and went out to get tattoo's. My mom got this little flower on her ankle, I think it's nice because it's not very big. She likes it but I think she kind of regrets it now. Either way it was funny. By the end of the night everyone was drunk off their ass. My dad nearly finished a 24 pack of whatever beer he was drinking. I couldn't complain, my parents are super nice to me when they are drunk. Note: They aren't drunk often, but when they are and there are people over... weird stuff happens. If anyone cares to hear these stories they can ask me. I'm too lazy to type it all. Well that's all. Au Revoir. comment

[10 Jul 2004|12:07am] × • I N F O R M A T I O N • × • Name: Drew Single or taken: Single Sex: Male Birthday: February, 21st Sign: Pisces Siblings: Older Sister Hair color: Tips are black, Roots are blonde and there is brown somewhere in the middle? I need to dye it again. Eye color: hazel or green Height: 5' 4 • × • R E L A T I O N S H I P S • × • Who are your best friends?: Samantha and Kelsey You have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: I wish I had both. Lol. • × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × • Where is your favorite place to shop: The mall Any tattoos or piercings: No. I want both though, have yet to decide where or what. • × • S P E C I F I C S • × • Do you do drugs?: nope What kind of shampoo do you use?: Suave What are you most scared of?: Spiders. What are you listening to right now? Malize Mizer. Who is the last person that called you?: Sammcakes Where do you want to get married?: I don't plan on getting married. How many buddies are online right now?: 16 What would you change about yourself?: A lot of things. I'm my own worste critic! • × • F A V O R I T E S • × • Color: Green at the moment. I love all colors. Food: Japanese food. Boys names: Manabu or Camui Girls names: Yukari Subjects in school: Art. Animals: Kitties! Duh. • × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × • Given anyone a bath?: My kitties. Smoked?: Yes, but now I find cigarettes repulsive. Bungee jumped?: Yes! It was fucking awesome. Made yourself throw up?: Once, but it was by accident. Lmao. Skinny dipped?: Yup. Ever been in love?: Maybe. Complicated subject. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Well duh, I am an actor after all. Pictured your crush naked?: -blink- What the hell do you think? Actually seen your crush naked?: My current crush, no. Past crushes...yes. Cried when someone died?: Yes Lied: Yes, but I don't like to. Fallen for your best friend?: Yeah, and let me tell you to do so is never a good thing. Been rejected?: Far too many times, but atleast I can admitt it. Lol. Rejected someone?: yes Used someone?: I hope not. Done something you regret?: Oh yes. • × • C U R R E N T • × • Clothes: Black pants and a Cure shirt. Music: Malize Mizer. I love J-Rock Make-up: Not at the moment, but I have been known to get a bit dolled up. Annoyance: Far too many to list. Smell: Paint. Desktop picture: 20 Pictures of Mana Belle. Book you're reading: Second Harry Potter. CD in player: Placebo, Malice Mizer and Jack Off Jill. DVD in player: Um? Porn? Lmao I don't have a dvd player in my bedroom. Wait I have Ps2 but there is a game in that! • × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × • You touched: ? Hugged: I don't remember, saddly. You imed: Meggy-boo You yelled at: Keegan, sorry buddy. You kissed: Oh fuck that. • × • A R E | Y O U • × • Understanding: I think so. Open-minded: I try to be, but no one is perfect. Arrogant: Yes, after all I am british. Lol. Insecure: Yes. Random: Very. Hungry: Always. I'm a fatass. Smart: Um, I want to be smart? Moody: I'm a bitch. Hard working: Yesm. Organized: YES! I swear I have OCD. Healthy: I Try to be. Shy: Depends. Usually, yes. Difficult: Yup. Attractive: You tell me? Bored easily: Yes! Obsessed: With music, anime, video games, computers, certain people...you name it! Angry: Usually. I try not to act on it though, bad karma! Sad: ha yeah Happy: Eh. Hyper: Not now. Trusting: Am I? • × • W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A • × • Kill?: Haha, everyone? Slap: Keegan. Get really wasted with?: Kelsey. Get high with: !!!! Talk to offline: Keegan. Talk to online: Um? Sex it up with: I have a list of all the people. There is like 40 people on there... -_- • × • R A N D O M • × • In the morning I am: Fine? All you need is: Love, love! Love is all you need! Right John? Love is: A bitch, but I can't live without it. I dream about: Lots of things, death usually. I don't really know why. Sexual preference: Boys, girls, trees. What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Personality. I'm a sucker for eyes. • × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • × • Coke or Pepsi: Dr. Pepper Flowers or candy: Sex? Tall or short: Um, I like asian people so short? • × • W H O • × • Makes you laugh the most: Samm, Megan, Jessica, Keegan, Kelsey... everyone? Makes you smile: Jennie face, and many others. Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: Not comment. • × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × • Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: Yeah Save conversations: Yup. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Nope. I like being a boy. I do like girls clothes though. Wish you were younger: Not now, but I am terrified of being old. Cried because someone said something to you?: Yes. • × • N U M B E R • × • Of times I have had my heart broken: Too many times. Of hearts I have broken: Hopefully not many. Of guys I've kissed: A few. Lol. Of girls I've kissed: A few. Lol. Of CD's I own: A Million? Of scars on my body: A lot, most I have no idea how they got there. I have an ugly one on my chin from falling when I was little. I hate it. Of things that I regret: Too many. • × • Y O U R | T H O U G H T S • × • I know: I suck. I want: A good relationship with someone. I have: A face. I wish: I was a genius. I hate: Lmao, I'm not listing them all. I fear: Spiders, being alone, dead things. I hear: The fan blowing. I search: For love and clothes. I wonder: What will happen to my friends/family/me in the future. I love: I dunno. Music? 2 | comment

[09 Jul 2004|11:15pm] [ mood | content ] Wee. I'm bored. I nearly finished my painting on my wall today, I know it's about time. Today was pretty boring, I did nothing! (As usual) Tomorrow should be fun though, I'm hanging out with Samm and Trina face. Hah, I realized today after watching the new episode of Degrassi how much I really do hate gay men. They're obnoxious. For those of you who watch that show should no how ugly that guy is that Marco is going for...yuck. The first time I saw him I had a sudden urge to hit him with a hammer, is that wrong? Bah, maybe he'll die or something. -_- My hair is all wavey, I didn't do anything to it today and it looks funny. I sent Jennie a picture of Camui on all fours just a moment ago. God damn that guy is hot. I am generally against anal sex but if that guy told me to bend over I'd be touching my toes. (Stole that from dear old Samm) He's that hot. I must send a link so you can all see how hot he is. He's hot like Mana Belle. Even as hot as Milla and Angelina. Heh, I love my asian boys. I want Battle Royale so bad. I need to order the movie off of ebay though. Yaya Han does a really good cosplay of Mitsuko. I love Yaya! I just found out that Gogo from Kill Bill Vol. 1 is in it too. Eeee. Well that's all folks. Au Revoir It's A Boy! 2 | comment

[08 Jul 2004|03:36pm] [ mood | happy ] Wow, I haven't written in my journal for a long time so I thought it would be best to start fresh, with a new one! Nothing has really been going on lately, this summer has pretty much sucked. I haven't really done anything but hang out with Kelsey and Samm. I can't believe it is already July. It's crazy, but hey what can you do about it? I just found out my dad has to travel all over the place for his job training people or something, he goes to Texas for 3 months in a few weeks then after that he is going to Europe. He said he is taking me with when he goes to Italy for a few weeks. I can't wait, something exciting is finally happening. I hung out with Keegan exactly a week ago. That was fun, I haven't seen that kid in like forever. He grew his hair out to his chin, and to my surprise it looks good. Speaking of hair, Jennie got hers cut and it looks really good. Lol Jennie I like your hair! Jessica has a boyfriend now, I don't really know how I feel about that. Lol, she is supposed to be single so we can be single together. Duh Jessica! Haha, no I am happy for her, really. My Sarah face is like dying because her boyfriend Pat broke up with her. I feel bad, she's too good for him and she needs to realize that. lmao. Note: I have been talking about all my friends lives rather than mine... I have no life to speak of so yea. It's sad. I am in love with J-rock. I'm moving to Japan one day. I have to! It's so cool there. Cool like plastic! Malice Mizer and Gackt are the coolest! Even though Malize Mizer broke up... -tear- I still love you Mana bo Bana! I am ashamed, I haven't been keeping up with my manga. I am already two books behind on Pet Shop Of Horrors. I know, I suck. I just saw "Perfect Blue" by the way, it's an anime for those of you who don't know. It's really, really good. You should see it. Umm, I guess that is all for now? I have to get ready to go to dad's house. My hair is greasy, ew. I need to wash it! Au Revoir! 1 | comment

[07 Jul 2004|12:18am] [ mood | content ] I don't have time to type, because it's kind of late but I wanted to write something after all this is a new live journal. Well I guess that's all? Au Revoir, Drew comment

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